Who here is the black sheep in their family?
*waves hands frantically* Oh ME! Pick MEEE!
Wait, you already knew that was coming because I asked the question? I really don't give you guys enough credit. Or any credit since I have no idea who or if anyone is actually reading this.
But for those of you crazy (unlucky) enough to have reached my words yes, I am indeed the black sheep. Don't start painting a picture of me riding a motorcycle and smashing bottles in a bar from being so wasted at 4 in the morning. I'm actually a very mild, mellow, and relaxed kind of black sheep. Coming from a largely Pacific Islander/Asian family it's not hard to stray from their expectations and become labeled the black sheep. Examples:
"No, I did not graduate top of my class and be the valedictorian for my year."
"No sorry didn't apply or pursue going to a big important college."
"Did I finish college? Ummm no."
"Do I work a 9-5? Nope."
You get the idea.
Growing up it was difficult trying to fit into this bubble of a role everyone wanted of me. The pressure of it was driving me mad with guilt. But as I got older and am now approaching my 3rd decade here on earth I came to realize and accept that none of it matters. I read this sentence somewhere that rings true to me.
"I will not let people who have no investment in my life to define me."
That may sound harsh since this sentence is partially directed at my family but there's more of a story there that I won't get into just yet. Instead I will edit that quote to fit myself better and say "positive investment in my life".
I know I'm not alone in this and that there are others out there struggling as well to fit or not fit into a role. I realize that the examples I listed above don't seem unreasonable but again there is more to it than I should really delve into so early into blogging. But this is our life and why should we do anything other than what makes us happy? I am far from accomplishing all my goals and doing/trying new things and experiences. As long as aliens don't invade tomorrow and I get shot down in the ensuing panic I will be living and breathing doing things on my own terms in my own time. Screw expectations. I'm here to enjoy my journey and not just rush blindly to the end.
If you stick around or rather if I stick around we'll see flashbacks of travelling while saving every penny to do so; a completely nontraditional wedding (that's right I got hitched!); small and big life moments of various things that make me happy; and then also posts of my present timeline of more of the same. Except the wedding part since I only plan on having one spouse. And I'm ever so lucky to be married to the most wonderful person I know. (cliche saying of married people: check.)
Side note:
This is my very first blog so I really have little to no clue as to what I'm doing. Please bear with me as I hopefully learn and grow as a potential blogger. I know there are people out there who leave less than pleasant comments but that's fine as that may be their outlet as this future blogging will be for me. As I've mentioned these types of people are ultimately not important in the grand scheme of my life. However if you relate to me and have any advice to blogging or just want to talk please do. I look forward to sharing my story with you.
And since no blog is complete without a picture and since I don't want to deal with copyrighting things just to have them be stolen away here is a ridiculous stitched together picture that I don't care ends up in random places.
That is in fact me, with a black sheep face with my cat's eyes. I know I know, don't tell me...I've got quite the knack as an artist. Thank you =)
See you next time! ....Maybe!
